hey guysss

so its some time since i wrote...am feeling so lazy this days.. mm so lazy

don;t feel to type :P....

and well i was so busy at my website too :) http://www.pepalo.co.cc ...and one of the greatest achivements i got this week was i created a cutom javascript which could make pepalo mebers enjoy multiplayer gammes..am so happy i did it..even the social go administrators took intrest in it..

then there was something like i being caught for hackign last week.. again seems to turn out to be good and things went in a very nice way....

b tw i also made a logo for pepalo

well also am missing talkign to some friends... life so boring...

b tw what was i writting..... ?? even am not sure......

just to let you know that am not yet dead...will see you guys soon

ti then

tc

be alive :)

more abt me

When someone says "we need to talk", what runs through your mind?
depends of people......​well mostly i like talking with others

Are you in a good mood?
i dunno... i don;t think am in best of my moods...

Does it bother you when you text somebody and they take forever to text back?
offcourse i do....lolz but ma ready to wait if that person said some reson for keep me waiting

Do people ever mistake you for being a different race?
mm no......

Do you want your phone to ring at this moment?
well may be... if its from some one who i loves ot talkw ith...

Last person text messaged?
,mm shwetz i think...

What color are your eyes?
Brown!

Are you tan?
might be....

When is your birthday?
june 30

Do you like Red Bull?
what sis that :P

What are your initials?
SJ

Tell me what's on your mind?
well so many things.... will take a long time to be written..am lazy so.. let it be another time..

Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
yeah i do....i slept abt like in today mornign than last night..

Have you ever liked someone, then realized you didn't?
welll seems so...

Does it annoy you when people don't put apostrophes on contractions​​?
never.. all i want is to get the meaning am not a fan of spelling at all

What is the last non-alcoholi​​c beverage you had?
apple juice?

Do you watch "The Hills"?​​
Nope. I don't watch TV! =)

Has/had/wish​​/or never had braces?
never had

Look in your text inbox, what does the 6th message say?
mm another time.. don;t ask me hard things to do :P am lazy

Was it a boy or a girl to text you last?
girl.....

Is your myspace profile private?
nope....

Do you own a piece of clothing with your school name on it?
Yes!

Would you honestly take a bullet for your sibling if you have one?
Yes. i belive so.. but depends on situations..​.

What is the last song in your playlist/mp3​​ library?
beat it.... as a memory of michael jackson

Does your password have any numbers in it?
yeah

Have you ever been to a bonfire?
Nope.


Do you often find junk mail in your mail box?
Yes 100000s

When is it trash day in your neighborhood​​?
who knows??

What would be the first thing you would do if you woke up as the opposite sex?
did i said i would like that to happen ?? well i dunno lets wait and see:P.

What color is your computer mouse?
black

What brand of lotion do you use?
I don't use lotion.

Do you use bookmarks or do you just fold the edge of the page over?
well not both..i don;t use both

Is the light on in the room you're currently in?
Yes.

Have you ever been in a mosh pit?
What's a mosh pit? :P

What is the most recent song you sang along with?
i dont; rember..may be love story taylor swift..

Is there a person you don't like but talk to any way?
mm i try not to dislike others..so there isn;t

Do you talk to your neighbors?
sure i do..

So, how's the weather?
Rainy! <3
and cool....

How many letters are in your last name?
4

What's the last kind of Vitamin Water you had?
Err...

What's the closest thing to you with sparkles?
the new image am designing on Photoshop

What are your plans for today?
just nothing....

What did you dream about last night?
I don't remember,

Is there a girl that knows everything or mostly everything about you?
i think there is.. or may be there are...

Who was the last person you hugged in public?
my little cousin ,...i think..

Did the one person who hurt you the most apologize?
i don;t remember.. i forgive with out apologizes..​

Have you ever kissed someone of the opposite sex (not family)?
never

Who was your last boyfriend/gi​​rlfriend?
seriously i did n;t had any ...

Ever had a crush on someone?
yeah ..i think so..

Birthday

i woke up that day.. it wasn't any different from other days..sun had already risen and its almost 7 .Ahan today is my birthday.So what ?? i have been living here in this world for 17 years..and yet did the world got anything from me.Whether i live or not will there be a difference? i looked through my mails and sms .There was even a packet from dad and mom and many many birthday cards,Of all colors ,Of all varieties and those sweet messages.. made me smile.. yet ...

As usuall am late to reach school.Some one had already spread the word that it was my birthday.So i was greated with many wishes again.Even the teacher didn't even bothered to scold me for being late.Even while the song "happy birthday to you" filled in classroom, the clouds in my heart didn't got drifted away.Whats so special about this day.I can't see anything unusual... people are celebrating.. but why ?? i can't even understand what good i have done to them ...

The school day went like all other days and i played the football in evening as usual.. dunno why i play ..for fun ??My legs hurt me as i walked back to my home..walking 2 kilometers after an hour and a half of tiring football match is not such a great idea for relief.Thoughts clustered in my mind..Yet even i wasn't sure about what all i was thinking..

Then something just caught attention of my eyes.Quite unnoticed from the crowd a man was searching in a litter box.Out of curiosity i watched what he was doing. A regular rag picker i suppose.well his looks were frightening.he looked dirty and wore a cloth of dirt's color .I stood there watching what he was doing. he don't seem to notice any one..as he was not taking any glass bottles, but was just throwing them aside i was confused... cause rag pickers usually take them..Then i saw a gleam on his face. i was curious to see what it was.. i looked closely.. a packet of half eaten food thrown away by some one.might have been there for days.even the smell of the garbage would make me close my nose with fingers..the thought of he going to eat it made me feel to vomit..

Another regular picture of poverty. i started walking but something made me stop.what can i do ? some force made me put my hands into my pocket and grab the rupee notes there, father's gift for my birthday.i have already planned to buy the new game disc.. but...some unknown force made me get into the near by hotel and order a parcel.i took it and started towards the man.. my footsteps made him notice me. he looked back..i froze..but when i saw his eyes all i could see

was fright .. he gazed at me.i offered the package..he came to me in slow steps looking closely at me.at last he was in a hand reach..suddenly he grabbed the package and started to run .i watched him vanishing in the distance and then i started walking back to my home..

At home it was unusually silent..i opened the door..and then there was a happy birthday wish in unison.. i smiled. birthday surprise!!!.i could see the smiling faces of my parents ,brother and my friends. i was guided to the cake..while i was blowing off the candles i made my wish, "may the suffery in the world decreases and people start to understand and help each other so no one have to live in poverty".That day, The birthday the cake tasted extra sweet even though it was all same as last year's and that night for once i slept peacefully, satisfied with thought that

finally i did one useful thing to the world..

"it's not that you have to do many things.. but the mind and the situation that make your help valuable to the world.."

disclaimer:- this is not a true story though it resembles some parts of my life.

i am gona miss you

The pain of lossing you is unexpainable.

may be all happy things ends up in misery .

you offered me quite a lot of happy moments.

but i feel all those ends with this little moment..

what did i done??

just tell   me.. may be atleast that will make me feel better.

why did you done this ??

may be knowing that will make me sleep tonight..

i was always been afraid to loose you

and think the day in my nightmares has arrived ..

am not sure how to face this.

and its not simple as the advices i give to you in past..

i feel despair, i feel sadness

just wish i won't loose you..

yet i feel that have already happened...

and today will be a sleep less night for me...

i am  gona miss you my friend...  i am surely gona miss  you.........

Dedicated to you, one of my bestfriends....dedicated only to you...

well i wish u would have been my best friend for ever... yet  dreams don't always happen.

Unspoken Words

many words, still left unspoken.

and a thousand times i wished,

 to express  them to you.

yet sometimes it so hard to say 

your feelings  to someone....

am not sure about what am thinking

yet one thign am sure is, 

i may have been born under luck star to

 meet a person as good as you 

and i wish ther won't be a day

when  we  have to say good bye..

in the dark night when i spent time looking 

up in sky, thoughts about you come to my

 mind. while am celebrating the most 

joy full events, i always miss you there.

well i wish very much for a day,when 

at last we be able to see each other.

what you see is beautiful ,things unseen are

more beautifull. yet for me i never care 

for beauty,or thats what i belive about me

thats why am so confident in wishing

to meet and spent time with you..

well i belive you know my mind, yet

you speak and act as if you know nothing

well you are really unpredictable

and thats why we are friends..

but my mind won't be feeling good untill

that day when i tell those unspoken words to you......

Time To Say GoodBye

          

          Time to Say Good bye............

The day i met you, i still remeber so well,

yet i didn't thought we will become friends.

Times passed , from friends we become good friends

but even your  good friends , never  understands you perfectly.

may be i did mistakes, but you know am not perfect

and even  when we met i told you am not perfect,but you said 

 you never really mind, yet now i feel like you do really mind.

but you should have told me at first place,  you can't forgive

silence is stinging and painfull,  one word from you can

cure it.yet i feel like now you really don't care me,

and want me to suffer more.yet i have no grudges

aganist you nor there is any end in my love towards you.

well i will never be regretting about meeting you

and am thankfull to you for all the happy times with you.

you were supportive, you were caring and over all that

you were one of the only real friend i had...

you may have resons,which are unknown for me and 

am asking you sorry for all the mistakes i did to you

so this the last time i write to you ,yet that  doesn't

means you are no longer that good friend of mine..

yes its time to say good bye.....

good bye once and forever..................

   well once you feel some one is not at  intrested in talking you, then let him or her alone.why to disturb him or her??

  well one thing you must understand is that you are not perfect yourself. Also no one will be able to understand you perfectly as well. so don't blame yourself nor blame him or her. guess every hi ends up at last in a good bye.......

 

Dedicated to someone who was once and always be my good friend.yet i am not sure he or she considers me as a good friend or even a friend ..........

Do you belive in ghost ??

               well who don't like a change (:P) ?  me too got bored with writting only about technology lolz.well ok today let me share you a forwaded mail oncei recieved from one of my friends.....

well so you will wonder why i put the title as "Do you belive in ghost " ? .well let me go straight to the content.. lolz don;t want to get you guys bored ... enjoy !!!!........

  

This is the content of email

 "The guy in the photo went to the Sundarbans with his friends and he asked 1 of his friends to take his picture in that very place. While his friend was taking the picture he screamed and fainted, 2 days later he died in the medical college. Doctors said he died because of heart attack. When the photos were exposed, in the last photo there was a lady standing right beside him though friends claim that he was standing alone. Many people said it is a rumor and the picture is the result of the blessings of latesttechnology. However, the photo itself is very scary and I'm sure you'll also feel the same way I've felt. Here you go with the photo!!! "

so any intrest in see the pic ?? its scary i promise (:P) .do see it if you don't want to see nightmares.  lolz ok sorry to kee you waiting, here you go with pic.......

           

 

well one thing is that i belive in ghost. Do u ??....

well if some one wants to know why.lets chat about it. i like talking on spooky things..

well but this pic is dissapointing..i think this is just a fake one.....but sure the pic looks spooky..

hope you enjoyed my post........