hey guysss

so its some time since i wrote...am feeling so lazy this days.. mm so lazy

don;t feel to type :P....

and well i was so busy at my website too :) http://www.pepalo.co.cc ...and one of the greatest achivements i got this week was i created a cutom javascript which could make pepalo mebers enjoy multiplayer gammes..am so happy i did it..even the social go administrators took intrest in it..

then there was something like i being caught for hackign last week.. again seems to turn out to be good and things went in a very nice way....

b tw i also made a logo for pepalo

well also am missing talkign to some friends... life so boring...

b tw what was i writting..... ?? even am not sure......

just to let you know that am not yet dead...will see you guys soon

ti then

tc

be alive :)

more abt me

When someone says "we need to talk", what runs through your mind?
depends of people......​well mostly i like talking with others

Are you in a good mood?
i dunno... i don;t think am in best of my moods...

Does it bother you when you text somebody and they take forever to text back?
offcourse i do....lolz but ma ready to wait if that person said some reson for keep me waiting

Do people ever mistake you for being a different race?
mm no......

Do you want your phone to ring at this moment?
well may be... if its from some one who i loves ot talkw ith...

Last person text messaged?
,mm shwetz i think...

What color are your eyes?
Brown!

Are you tan?
might be....

When is your birthday?
june 30

Do you like Red Bull?
what sis that :P

What are your initials?
SJ

Tell me what's on your mind?
well so many things.... will take a long time to be written..am lazy so.. let it be another time..

Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
yeah i do....i slept abt like in today mornign than last night..

Have you ever liked someone, then realized you didn't?
welll seems so...

Does it annoy you when people don't put apostrophes on contractions​​?
never.. all i want is to get the meaning am not a fan of spelling at all

What is the last non-alcoholi​​c beverage you had?
apple juice?

Do you watch "The Hills"?​​
Nope. I don't watch TV! =)

Has/had/wish​​/or never had braces?
never had

Look in your text inbox, what does the 6th message say?
mm another time.. don;t ask me hard things to do :P am lazy

Was it a boy or a girl to text you last?
girl.....

Is your myspace profile private?
nope....

Do you own a piece of clothing with your school name on it?
Yes!

Would you honestly take a bullet for your sibling if you have one?
Yes. i belive so.. but depends on situations..​.

What is the last song in your playlist/mp3​​ library?
beat it.... as a memory of michael jackson

Does your password have any numbers in it?
yeah

Have you ever been to a bonfire?
Nope.


Do you often find junk mail in your mail box?
Yes 100000s

When is it trash day in your neighborhood​​?
who knows??

What would be the first thing you would do if you woke up as the opposite sex?
did i said i would like that to happen ?? well i dunno lets wait and see:P.

What color is your computer mouse?
black

What brand of lotion do you use?
I don't use lotion.

Do you use bookmarks or do you just fold the edge of the page over?
well not both..i don;t use both

Is the light on in the room you're currently in?
Yes.

Have you ever been in a mosh pit?
What's a mosh pit? :P

What is the most recent song you sang along with?
i dont; rember..may be love story taylor swift..

Is there a person you don't like but talk to any way?
mm i try not to dislike others..so there isn;t

Do you talk to your neighbors?
sure i do..

So, how's the weather?
Rainy! <3
and cool....

How many letters are in your last name?
4

What's the last kind of Vitamin Water you had?
Err...

What's the closest thing to you with sparkles?
the new image am designing on Photoshop

What are your plans for today?
just nothing....

What did you dream about last night?
I don't remember,

Is there a girl that knows everything or mostly everything about you?
i think there is.. or may be there are...

Who was the last person you hugged in public?
my little cousin ,...i think..

Did the one person who hurt you the most apologize?
i don;t remember.. i forgive with out apologizes..​

Have you ever kissed someone of the opposite sex (not family)?
never

Who was your last boyfriend/gi​​rlfriend?
seriously i did n;t had any ...

Ever had a crush on someone?
yeah ..i think so..

about me (125 answers)

1.) Are you really ready for 125 questions?
Yup.

2) Was your last real relationship​ a mistake?
Never been in a real relationship​.

3) Do you believe in God?
Yeah.i do...

4) Who did you last say "I love you" to?
mm... have i really told to anyone ?? i don't rember.

5) Do you regret it?
i dunno....

6) Have you ever been depressed?
many times !!!

7) Have a best friend?
i have good friends.but i dunno i have a best friend

8) Are you a boy or a girl?
Boy

9) What is your relationship​​ status?
Single.

10) How do you want to die?
calm and peacefull death

11) What did you last eat?
snacks

12) Play any sports?
Badminton, soccer, basketball,c​ricket.... i play all am able to...

13) Do you bite your nails ?
Used to do in past... now am growing my nails :P

14) Where do you work?
if u call being student a job :p at school.. i do soem webdesignign​ too.. but not for any company

15) Do you have an attitude?
Ask some one who know me :P

16) Do you like someone?
mm... may be.... and offcourse i like my family and friends.

17) Whats your real name?
Sojan v jose (sj)

19) What are you gonna do later?
i never plan ahead.. even if i did..i rarely go with plans..

20) Do you hate anyone at the moment?
I hate the feeling "hate"​

21) Do you miss someone?
mm yep...

22) Twirl or cut your spaghetti?
...

23) Do you tan a lot?
.......

24) Have any pets?
if u call the stray cat , who always coem to house and stay near me a pet...

25) How exactly are you feeling?
dull....

26)Are any of your texts in your inbox locked and why?
yeah

27) Ever gone to a concert?
Nope

28) Would you take any of your exes back?
like i have any...

29) Are you scared of spiders?
<3 em.. and not even afraid to play with them :P

30) Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
yeah

31) Do you regret anything from your past?
Yeah

32) What are your plans for this weekend?
nope...

33) Have you ever quoted a line from a movie?
Don't think so.

34) Did you ever kiss someone whose name starts with an E?
Nope.

35) Do you type fast?
mm.. think am average

36) Do you have piercings? How many?
nope

37) Want any more?
nope

38) Can you spell well?
aaaahh,,

39) Do you miss anyone from your past?
Yes, I do..

40) What are you craving right now?
many things..

41) Ever been to a bonfire party ?
Nope.

43) Have you ever been on a horse?
Yes. twice or thrice

44) What is one thing you spend way too much money on?
books :P i don;t have much money:P

45) Have you ever broken someone's heart?
Maybe. I don't know.buut if i had known i would be sorry and try to make up for it...

46) Have you ever been cheated on?
Kinda...many​ times..

47) Have you made a boyfriend/gi​​rlfriend cry?
nope.... i think..

49) Would you live with someone without marrying them?
dunno. .. i think i won;t mind..

50) What should you be doing ?
Taking this survey :P

51) What's irritating you right now?
mosquitoes..​ and fact i dont; have much to do...or chances to do..and my good friend is not online..

52) Have you ever liked someone?
Yes.

53) Does somebody love you?
dunno...

54) What is your favorite color ?
silver,black​

55) Anything you're currently looking forward to?
my websit ebeing a success

57) Do you have trust issues?
Sometimes.

56) Have you ever said something stupid?
Yes.i think i did

60) Do you have a good relationship​​ with your parents?
yep.. i think

62) Look in your inbox in your phone, who are all the people you have texts from?
many people from my good friends to strangers..

63) Who was the last person you cried in front of?
No one. I cry by myself if i want.. its long since i cried..

64) Do you give out second chances too easily?
Yes. i do

65) Is it easier to forgive or forget?
forgive yeah.. forget.. i dunno...

66) Is this year the best year of your life?
nope....

67) What was your child hood nickname?
every one call me sojan ...

68) Have you ever walked outside barefoot?
i do most times...

69) Do you think you're a good person?
i dunno..ask soem one who know me...

70) What color are your eyes?
Brown.

71) What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night ?
study

73) What is bothering you?
many thoughts and things

74) Have you ever been out of the country?
nope

75) Do you play the Wii?
nope

76) Are you listening to music right now?
nope.

77) Do you like Chinese food?
Yeah,

78) Do you know your fathers b- day?
yeah

79) Are you afraid of the dark?
Not any more...

81) Are you mean?
ask some one who know me..

82) Can you keep white shoes clean?
Yeah ... in clean brown color :P

83) Has anyone ever told you that you had pretty eyes?
Only in coments over photos online

84) Do you believe in true love?
yeah

85) Are you proud of the person you've become?
for some things.

86) Do you like the outside?
Yeh and I spent time there..

89) Are you currently bored?
kinda

90) What did you do yesterday
am lazy:P. .. to type :P.. studied...ch​atted, edited my site,slept ,ate so n so

91) Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you cutie/sweeti​​e?
I dunno

92) Are you hungry?
Not much

93) Do you have a bank account?
Yeah... 2 or 3 .. but most ar eempty :P

94) What makes you happy?
success,care​

95) Would you change your name?
Nope!

96) Do you think you can last in a relationship​​ for 6 months without cheating?
Yeah.

98) Do you watch the news?
yeah.

99) Are you currently frustrated with a boy/ girl?
not really.

100) Kissed someone on your friends list?
nopeeee

101) Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?
Nope.i haven't kissed many people :P

102) Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?
Depends

103) Do you talk like your friends?
Am me not my friend :P...

105) Have you ever seen someone you knew & purposely avoided them?
Plenty of times, lol.

106) Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self?
i don;t think so...

107) Who is the last guy you talked to?
My bro

108) Does it matter if your boyfriend/gi​​rlfriend smokes?
Um. i hate smoking...

109) Do you go to church?
yeah i do.

110) What's going on between you and your best friend?
Friendship..​............​

111) Who's the last person you had a deep conversation​​ with?
priya ...

113) Do you enjoy piercings & tattoos?
Nope.

114) What do you wear more: jeans, sweats, pants, or shorts?
Jeans.

115) Next time you will kiss someone?
i can't predict future....

116) Where do you go if its raining and you can't go home (no umbrella)?
i would walk in rain...

117) Do you prefer to shower at night or in the morningno preferances

118) Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?
Yeah.

119) Do you want to please everyone?
Yeah think so..

120) Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
Yeah.

121) Has someone ever made you a promise & broken it?
Yeah ..though not with my wish.. .

122) Are you alone?
I dunno.

123) Do you have any siblings?
1 bro-younger

124) Did you speak to your father today?
yeah i did

125) How many months until your birthday?
mm 11 months.....

Birthday

i woke up that day.. it wasn't any different from other days..sun had already risen and its almost 7 .Ahan today is my birthday.So what ?? i have been living here in this world for 17 years..and yet did the world got anything from me.Whether i live or not will there be a difference? i looked through my mails and sms .There was even a packet from dad and mom and many many birthday cards,Of all colors ,Of all varieties and those sweet messages.. made me smile.. yet ...

As usuall am late to reach school.Some one had already spread the word that it was my birthday.So i was greated with many wishes again.Even the teacher didn't even bothered to scold me for being late.Even while the song "happy birthday to you" filled in classroom, the clouds in my heart didn't got drifted away.Whats so special about this day.I can't see anything unusual... people are celebrating.. but why ?? i can't even understand what good i have done to them ...

The school day went like all other days and i played the football in evening as usual.. dunno why i play ..for fun ??My legs hurt me as i walked back to my home..walking 2 kilometers after an hour and a half of tiring football match is not such a great idea for relief.Thoughts clustered in my mind..Yet even i wasn't sure about what all i was thinking..

Then something just caught attention of my eyes.Quite unnoticed from the crowd a man was searching in a litter box.Out of curiosity i watched what he was doing. A regular rag picker i suppose.well his looks were frightening.he looked dirty and wore a cloth of dirt's color .I stood there watching what he was doing. he don't seem to notice any one..as he was not taking any glass bottles, but was just throwing them aside i was confused... cause rag pickers usually take them..Then i saw a gleam on his face. i was curious to see what it was.. i looked closely.. a packet of half eaten food thrown away by some one.might have been there for days.even the smell of the garbage would make me close my nose with fingers..the thought of he going to eat it made me feel to vomit..

Another regular picture of poverty. i started walking but something made me stop.what can i do ? some force made me put my hands into my pocket and grab the rupee notes there, father's gift for my birthday.i have already planned to buy the new game disc.. but...some unknown force made me get into the near by hotel and order a parcel.i took it and started towards the man.. my footsteps made him notice me. he looked back..i froze..but when i saw his eyes all i could see

was fright .. he gazed at me.i offered the package..he came to me in slow steps looking closely at me.at last he was in a hand reach..suddenly he grabbed the package and started to run .i watched him vanishing in the distance and then i started walking back to my home..

At home it was unusually silent..i opened the door..and then there was a happy birthday wish in unison.. i smiled. birthday surprise!!!.i could see the smiling faces of my parents ,brother and my friends. i was guided to the cake..while i was blowing off the candles i made my wish, "may the suffery in the world decreases and people start to understand and help each other so no one have to live in poverty".That day, The birthday the cake tasted extra sweet even though it was all same as last year's and that night for once i slept peacefully, satisfied with thought that

finally i did one useful thing to the world..

"it's not that you have to do many things.. but the mind and the situation that make your help valuable to the world.."

disclaimer:- this is not a true story though it resembles some parts of my life.

i am gona miss you

The pain of lossing you is unexpainable.

may be all happy things ends up in misery .

you offered me quite a lot of happy moments.

but i feel all those ends with this little moment..

what did i done??

just tell   me.. may be atleast that will make me feel better.

why did you done this ??

may be knowing that will make me sleep tonight..

i was always been afraid to loose you

and think the day in my nightmares has arrived ..

am not sure how to face this.

and its not simple as the advices i give to you in past..

i feel despair, i feel sadness

just wish i won't loose you..

yet i feel that have already happened...

and today will be a sleep less night for me...

i am  gona miss you my friend...  i am surely gona miss  you.........

Dedicated to you, one of my bestfriends....dedicated only to you...

well i wish u would have been my best friend for ever... yet  dreams don't always happen.

Unspoken Words

many words, still left unspoken.

and a thousand times i wished,

 to express  them to you.

yet sometimes it so hard to say 

your feelings  to someone....

am not sure about what am thinking

yet one thign am sure is, 

i may have been born under luck star to

 meet a person as good as you 

and i wish ther won't be a day

when  we  have to say good bye..

in the dark night when i spent time looking 

up in sky, thoughts about you come to my

 mind. while am celebrating the most 

joy full events, i always miss you there.

well i wish very much for a day,when 

at last we be able to see each other.

what you see is beautiful ,things unseen are

more beautifull. yet for me i never care 

for beauty,or thats what i belive about me

thats why am so confident in wishing

to meet and spent time with you..

well i belive you know my mind, yet

you speak and act as if you know nothing

well you are really unpredictable

and thats why we are friends..

but my mind won't be feeling good untill

that day when i tell those unspoken words to you......

My Buddy List

           Click here to visit my buddy list                                                                                                                                                     

well the friends who know me well know that am a computer geek. i love to create websites, learn new stuff and help people. and among my hobbies , i give most importance to creation. it wa salways my dream to create a website and finally i was almost able to be satisfied with "mybuddylist".

today i will tell you more about my website :

   

so this is my buddy list home page. this site allowas you to have a a custom profile for you,add videos ,photos and music. have your own blog, write in froums, create groups and events and keep in update with friends. you can also enjoy the instant messenger feature and play multiplayer games....

how i began.. 

from the day i got internet, i was like really dreaming to learn and build a website for me.and like in noveber 2008 , after trying alot platforms and scripts i reached this platform which was really satisfying for me.....

my works..

well even thought most features are made by the developers from third party , i did a little work on the plat form too. i installed who-im a custom tool, created the theme for the site and invited many people and even now spentign a lot time and effort for the site....

how you can help...

well big success always come with participation.so if you guys join and invite your friends , add media like blogs and all it will be a great help for me...

  

                                    

                                                                                                                                                     

Future dreams...      

in the past when i started building this site ..the platform was in free beta.now it has been changed to paid versions. so if i need to add more developmeants , i will have to pay, which am unable to do in present state...

the expected money to be raised to shift to a paid version is 200$.so am looking for ward advertizers and sponsers .so if you are intrested please contact me on sojan.mg@gmail.com

        if you are intrested in donating this project please click the donate button below                                                       

welcome

hello friends

So at last i opened a new blog on blogger.com  i used to blog on a site called ibibo and now its a long time since i stopped that habbit.anyways here am back again. i will share my knowledge, creations ,plans and everything in this blog.

so please wait , i will start writting here as soon as i can.tell then enjoy my old posts at

http://www.blogs.ibibo.com/master1